I understand

Call it what you will: maturity, getting older, etc, but there's something that happens when you get to a certain level of understanding, a certain age.  When I was younger, I felt the world revolved around me.  Well, didn't it? lol.  I took no notice of anything else or anyone else for that matter but me.  My only concerns were of my wants, needs, etc.  If put in a situation where someone couldn't bend to my wishes, I took it personally, as an affront towards me.  But now, I find myself constantly saying, "I understand", because I actually do.  It's just odd and I hope I'm making sense.  Take my desire for my bff.  I've come to terms that I love this man beyond anything I can imagine but the practical side has won out over the emotional side.  The younger or rather immature me (cause maturity is not a sign of age, but wisdom, lol) would have thrown all caution to the wind and professed my feelings to him and let the chips fall where they may.  In my mind, the scenario would be that he would share with me similar feelings and we would be instant.  lol.  When we talk, I find myself having to restrain myself in order not to let out the BIG SECRET.  It's hard, I won't lie, but it must be done.  Why?  Because, maturity has allowed me to see that the world DOES NOT revolve around me and that there are various factors to every situation.  Why all this?  I was watching a movie where a young girl falls in love and the guy explains to her that he's not ready.  She was heart broken, I understood.  Wow.  Maturity.

Comments

T.Notes said…
Lol,i understand too!!!Tho maybe not with your own sorta depth/conviction!Me,woulda blurted it out long ago n now be regretting the stupidity of my decision!
musco said…
Who exactly is this guy?

Everybody seems to be coming up with posts that makes me want to ask questions ...
T.Notes said…
Muscooooooooooo,mind ya own!!!lol!!!
YankeeNaija said…
@ Musco: ask questions, really, you? lol. May I remind you kind sir about a couple posts you yourself put up about a certain blog crush that had us all clammering to find out who she is. lol. Hello pot, may i introduce to the kettle. lol

@TN: LOL.
Myne Whitman said…
Maturity is a good thing but for some of us it doesn't come when we need it most. But I thank God that it will usually come to all of us. Thanks for sharing this.
YankeeNaija said…
@ Myne: I wonder too why it doesn't come when we need it but after the fact, then we use our experiences as a way to bypass past failures. dang. too much trouble.

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