Today is my off day from both work and school and i pretty much stayed up all night, watching tv and now blogging.  I'm a bag of mixed emotions because of the mayhem going on in my mother's house and the fact that i'm back w/ my ex boyfriend, I'm very happy about that.  CG is totally out of the picture, the twat, but for the most part, I'm doing ok.  I have God on my side.  Truly, psalm 27 is really coming in handy during these trying times.  V10: my mother and father may abandon me but the Lord will take care of me.  I love the Lord and He has truly heard my cry.  God is good.

CG
Well, last Saturday, i drove CG to the airport before going into work.  I'd already been having my misgivings about him but I just shook them off.  So, Saturday night he lands in NY.  He first sent me a text to let me know he'd gotten there safely earlier in the day.  He later called me to chat but my sister, cousin and i were driving to a party and were using my phone as our navigation device.  I told him I'd call him when we got to our destination.  When we got to our destination, I bb msged him.  He didn't respond.  Half an hour later, he bb msged me that he was turning in and made a snide comment of me forgetting to call.  I responded that I couldn't call and that was why I was msging him.  He was having none of it.  I apologized profusely and that was that.  I didn't hear from him all day Sunday and then he called me around 7 o'clock at night, but I was sleeping.  He said we'd talk later.  I called him Monday morning, no answer and no call back, no bb msgs.  I called him in the evening, no answer, no call backs and no bb msgs.  Something told me that he would call me on Tuesday, the day he would be coming back from NY and sure enough, he called me non stop and sent bb msgs.  I responded to none of them. He sent me a msg letting me know his flight would be in at 10:30pm and my response, to myself, was fuck you.  I haven't spoken to him since and I never plan to again.  Today is Friday and he called me at 2 am this Friday morning.  Are you flipping kidding me?  Of all the times to call me, you fucking call me at fucking 2am?

Why am I going off?  Because my thing is, it doesn't take a lot to make me happy or to please me or to keep me on your side.  Just be nice to me, respect me and we're good.  Don't think that token gestures are going to do anything for me.  Be real, be genuine and I will be like putty in your hands, but he just didn't get that.

His loss.

Comments

Aku$hika said…
oww... too bad kinda liked CG, but since you're back with the ex, we don't need him anymore :-) good-luck luck with boo. Unfortunately i'm not in a good place right now :-(
YankeeNaija said…
awwww..honey. it'll get better. just give it time.
T.Notes said…
I AM DEFINITELY OFF-THE-LOOP I!!!!Not fair!!!
musco said…
Okay o!

I still kinda exist you know and my offer still stands ...

LOL!
YankeeNaija said…
my boys are back. you've both abandoned me. i'd given up hope. lol.

@ TN: we'll chat later and i'll catch u up.

@Musco: you're engaged. nuff said. LOL.
Unknown said…
It's his loss. Sounds like he thinks he's all that. You certainly showed him he ain't.

You seem happy enough with your decision about your ex. I hope it all goes well.

@ Musco
Aburo, stop flirting.
Unknown said…
I like psalm 27 too. It's one of my favourite psalms.
musco said…
@YankeeNaija- Tell me the time and date I was engaged and I will leave you alone for ever!lol

@Naijalines- Egbon, let me flirt jo ... wen she no wan gree nko?Don't worry, she's far away. I won't do anything 2 stupid ....lol!
back with the ex....? wao...i think you kinda need to slow down and i feel you should have taken your time before getting back with the ex....
And as for Cg, nobody is perfect yea, but we are all human, so we will fall short of your expectations one way or the other..you need to be able to accomodate this and give the person the chance to make things up to you...

But since you are back with the ex...i'l suggest you write down your deal-breakers (things you cant absolutely compromise on) then make up your mind to be more accommodating on the rest and have an open mind, knowing things wont always be rosy and willing to work through the rough patches...that is the only way to build a sustainable relationship

My 2 cents
YankeeNaija said…
Doll, you rock. Sage of all sages. I think the rebound w/ the ex was out of spite. totally a bad idea. I was reminded why he is my ex again. You're awesome. Take care.
Unknown said…
@ YN
Awww...that's sad. Sorry it didn't work out.
Don't worry babe. You'll be fine.

On a lighter note, perhaps you should flirt with Musco a little bit. Er...for therapy. Just virtual o. At least you've already got a real life crush in the shape of your lovely chef, so no dangers there. :)
YankeeNaija said…
LMAO@NJ: That's more wahala than I need.
inStilettos said…
wow! wish i'd seen this earlier... I agree with Doll...Slowwwwwwwwwwww down... ok so CG's not perfect hun... but you know Ade's always honest, if i'm too harsh just kick me... but i dont really see what he's done here...sounds like he was jealous you didnt call back and we like jealous...don't we?... I think you should talk to him and at least straighten stuff out... give him a chance hun! btw you guys has such an amazing connection... open communication always works!... i know how you must feel... but... try babe!
anyways after speaking to TN ... i'm meekly going to ask you to send me an e mail... i think musco, TN, Yu and i should have a 4 way :)... over the phone... so please send an e mail and musco you send one too please... adeadeyemi21@gmail.com.
Unknown said…
YN, I hope all is well. Haven't heard from you in a long while. Take care.
musco said…
Yes o! where in d world are u? u re making me miss u!
YankeeNaija said…
YN & Musco. I'm well. I miss you guys too. School and work. kicking my ass. I have so little time but I did think abt this blog and it's nice to see you guys are checking on me. My dear Musco, sorry we haven't chatted in a while. I miss u too. But I'll be back soon. Take care.

Popular posts from this blog

putting myself in the crosshairs

Weekend update