I had a thought as I was driving home today, after my prayer group.
I was thinking about a conversation that I'd like to have with my boyfriend. We're getting close to that point of joining ourselves to one another permanently. We will eventually get married, have babies and ride off into the sunset together. But before that, I called him up one day and told him that he and I needed to go out one night or day, and sit and talk. We need to have THAT conversation. You know, the one where you sit and spill out all your shit, all your foibles, all the things that you keep secret until after the wedding, like credit scores, spending habits, secret habits, things of that nature. This conversation should be interesting. I also thought about another topic we would be talking about, my fear that we'll get bored w/ one another. I don't think him so much w/ me but I really fear that I'll get bored w/ him. Why? Because I'm a very sexual creature, he is too, but in the sense that I can be with someone for a long time, but if I'm willing to do all I can to please you sexually and you aren't willing to do the same w/ me, we will have problems and the relationship probably won't last.
I want he and I to talk about that aspect and let him know what my expectations are. I also want to know what his expectations are of me as well. I love this man, I've loved this man since I was fifteen years old and I plan on being w/ him for the duration of my life on this earth. And so, I will do whatever it fucking takes to make this work.
I was, in the past, shitty to him on so many levels and so for us to have another chance at being together, for good this time, you bet for damn sure I will do what's necessary to keep us together, but that doesn't mean that I will put my desires and wants on the back burner. I love him, more than I can imagine, but I love me more and I'm sure he'd say the same. We love each other dearly but I don't think our relationship would work if we put our selves on the back burner.
I'm really looking forward to this conversation and what he's going to tell me and what his reaction will be to the things I tell him. I don't think I've ever been this intimate w/ anyone, not even Munchkin's father, the prick.
Wish me/us luck!
I was thinking about a conversation that I'd like to have with my boyfriend. We're getting close to that point of joining ourselves to one another permanently. We will eventually get married, have babies and ride off into the sunset together. But before that, I called him up one day and told him that he and I needed to go out one night or day, and sit and talk. We need to have THAT conversation. You know, the one where you sit and spill out all your shit, all your foibles, all the things that you keep secret until after the wedding, like credit scores, spending habits, secret habits, things of that nature. This conversation should be interesting. I also thought about another topic we would be talking about, my fear that we'll get bored w/ one another. I don't think him so much w/ me but I really fear that I'll get bored w/ him. Why? Because I'm a very sexual creature, he is too, but in the sense that I can be with someone for a long time, but if I'm willing to do all I can to please you sexually and you aren't willing to do the same w/ me, we will have problems and the relationship probably won't last.
I want he and I to talk about that aspect and let him know what my expectations are. I also want to know what his expectations are of me as well. I love this man, I've loved this man since I was fifteen years old and I plan on being w/ him for the duration of my life on this earth. And so, I will do whatever it fucking takes to make this work.
I was, in the past, shitty to him on so many levels and so for us to have another chance at being together, for good this time, you bet for damn sure I will do what's necessary to keep us together, but that doesn't mean that I will put my desires and wants on the back burner. I love him, more than I can imagine, but I love me more and I'm sure he'd say the same. We love each other dearly but I don't think our relationship would work if we put our selves on the back burner.
I'm really looking forward to this conversation and what he's going to tell me and what his reaction will be to the things I tell him. I don't think I've ever been this intimate w/ anyone, not even Munchkin's father, the prick.
Wish me/us luck!
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