It's over nowwwww...

Yupper. I am officially single. Weird. Really weird. Goes a little something like this...

Last Tuesday, May 18th, my boyfriend and I had plans to hang out, outside of his place. I was so looking forward to it too. Earlier in the day, we kept touch by text, just checking on each other, seeing how the other was doing, that sort of thing. The last time we communicated was around early on in the afternoon. I called him when I knew he'd be off work, after 4:30pm, to find out if he'd gotten home to feed and walk his dog to figure out how much time I'd need to get ready. I called his cell, no answer. I called his house, no answer. I waited 30mins and again called his cell and home, no answer. I waited an hour, called both cell and house, this time leaving messages. I waited for a call, a text, something. I got nothing. Next day, no communication. Day after, he sends me a text asking how I'm doing, I don't respond and we haven't communicated, in any way, since. Good riddance I say.

I thought I'd be super crushed, but no. Not crushed. Confused, yes. Crushed, no. C'est la vie. It's so bizarre how relationships end. There are a myriad of ways relationships end and I'm sure that there are stories that would make me laugh, cry or make my hair stand on end.

Funny enough, I'm good. I'm not looking to jump into another relationship anytime soon. I'm not soured on being in another relationship, I'm in fact looking forward to being in another one, but I'm at the point where I want to be with someone that I'm going to marry. I know, how will I know if I don't date, right? But, I'm just cool right now and know that it's not necessary for me to be with another person so I don't feel alone.

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unspoken thoughtz said…
That's how it ended? I feel like I need closure lol...It's all good hun, you sound like you're very strong and comfortable being alone in you're own skin which so many people lack nowadays...I love the way you seem so self confident...
U know what they say..when life gives you lemons :)
May 26, 2010 at 8:10 PM
YankeeNaija said…
@ unspoken: I had the idea to call and ask what was the deal but in the end, I realized it wouldn't be worth it. I also realized that if the opportunity presented itself for us to get back together, I didn't want it. I didn't want to get back together. That's one of the perks of getting older I guess, seeing things as they really are and not making excuses or glossing over them.
May 27, 2010 at 10:55 AM
Sugarking said…
Wow, that's one hell of an ending right there! Well, there's got to be an explanation tho. Maybe u wanna speak to him? at least to get closure?
May 28, 2010 at 12:06 PM
Myne said…
That cannot be the end, gosh, I think you're both being proud, forgive me. Still, what will be will be I guess. I wrote a story about when love is gone on my blog.

Anyway take care of you and have a lovely weekend.
May 28, 2010 at 6:25 PM
YankeeNaija said…
Sugarking: What would be the point? I feel this is enough closure for me. I'm good.

Myne: I read it and the conclusion. All I can say is, wow. Did that really happen to you? If so, ndo, if not, it gives one a lot to think about. It even scared me a little because it showed the uncertainty and fragility of love.
May 28, 2010 at 10:53 PM
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