I have all these ideas in my head. I have so many that I've now been reduced to writing them down on pieces of paper, so that I don't lose that train of thought, so that I can post it, which I don't. Go figure. I'm going to write, just dealing w/ stuff. I know, I know, who doesn't have stuff to deal w/? But my stuff I'm dealing w/ is extra special stuff (seriously hope someone bought that). I'll be back, I guess when my head is in the game.
Life sucks period. I don't know why I would want to continue it but there's this annoying resiliency within me that won't allow me to give up and I'm grateful, I suppose. There's hope in my heart, to see past the negative and focus on the positive. I'm trying. I focus so much on my failings that I don't see my successes. I've decided to see a therapist. One of my co-workers had success with her therapist so I asked her to give me her therapist's number. I need to unlock whatever it is within me that causing all of this. I want to be whole. I want to be better. Not jagged pieces with no purpose.