Regret

It follows me like a shadow. I'm haunted by it, as if by an unsettled spirit that cannot move on.
There's nothing I can do to change the past, though it's been on my mind as of late. I wish I could go back in time, to when I was fourteen, for three weeks and change my life. I would do so many things differently.

Why is it on my mind so much? It's as if I can't escape it. The life I'm living now is the life I will have till I die, so why is it on my mind to go back in time and change things?

What if... That's the question that plagues me. What if... Not much I can do about it now but just move forward, press on and live out the rest of this life. Maybe if I'm allowed to come back in another life, I pray I can remember this life to bypass most of the errors I made in this one.

Regret sucks.

Comments

Myne said…
Regret really sucks. I'll say you should forget about the what ifs and move on with your life. We can't change the past but the future is in our hands. All the best girl..
December 10, 2009 at 4:05 PM
Tatababe said…
I'll say to you what the theme was at church last night "let go and let God".
December 10, 2009 at 4:17 PM
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January 4, 2010 at 3:55 PM
dblog said…
Just remember that you only have one life to live...There is no part 2
January 4, 2010 at 10:20 PM
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