putting myself in the crosshairs

My caloric intake this week was good.  I behaved myself.  I accounted for everything I ate.  I lost 2 lbs this week.  

On a sad note, I've been crying since last night and every time I think of it, I continue to cry.  I'm so sad really.  Last night, before going to bed, my mom had asked me to plug in her cell phone and as I was walking up the stairs, my left side started to hurt.  she asked me what I was saying ow about, I said because my side hurt.  she said that it was too bad the pain wasn't enough to keep me from eating.  She was upset because I ate a whole rib, a whole rib that was within my weight watchers points value, a whole rib that I accounted for.  She said that I ate like a horse because I ate the one rib.   It hurt my feelings so much that I've been crying since and even now as I type this, I get choked up.  What annoyed me the most was that I made the ribs for Labor day and I only ate one rib that day.  I was very proud of myself.  I made 9 ribs total and out of all the ribs, I only ate 2.  My sister consumed the rest but my mom didn't ask about those.  My sister binges and purges and I think my mom doesn't want to see it because she'd rather have a thin daughter than a fat one.  I want to move out of my mom's house.   After she said what she said, I hated her so much.  I thought nothing but the worst things about her, I'm sad to admit.  I thought about praying to God but I felt that because she is on of his beloved, He wouldn't do anything about it, which in a way made me see Him differently.