I'm getting married. That's right! I'm engaged. The interesting thing is that I've been wanting this for a long time but now that it's here, I don't know what to do. If left to me, I would go to the courthouse and get married but the the thing is that there are other people involved, namely my family. So now, that leaves us with planning a wedding and deciding who will be in it. I'm not really there yet so I'll leave that for now. What's on my mind is, I'm not the young bride to be anymore. I'm forty years old, soon to be forty-one, and as excited as I am to begin this new phase of my life, I'm not that excited about the whole planning process. I've been seeing lots of pictures on Instagram and videos on Youtube of lovely weddings but they're all of young people and nothing starring people mine and my fiance's ages. And another thing is we want to take our time with the planning process and not feel rushed but people freak out and think we're looking to have a long and drawn out engagement. You can't win for trying.
Setting my heart free
I'm going through a divorce and ending a marriage that lasted two years. Two long, hard and hurtful years. I married a monster, an evil man. When I say evil, I mean evil like when we were kids and we had to have on night lights because we were afraid of the boogeyman. That kind of evil. A man free of any sort of remorse. A man with no conscience. More on this character later. Trust me, I will totally spill the beans but things have to be in place first. Anyway, when my marriage first ended, I was of the mind that I was free and I could move on and find the one for me, the one to truly love me the way I'd always known I'd be loved, my soulmate. Needless to say, I'm still single. Sure there are men out there who are interested but the problem is, I'm not. I'm afraid. I'm afraid of giving away my heart. I'm afraid of trusting someone so completely and utterly. I'm afraid of being myself. With my soon to be ex-husband, I trusted him impli...
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