The sins of the daughter

Being in my current relationship, I look back on past transgressions in previous relationships.  I cheated on one boyfriend.  Granted, he had the emotional capabilities of a billiard ball, but still that's not an excuse.  I cheated on him because I felt emotionally and sexually wanting.  For me, it's one or the other.  If sexually you don't cut it, you had better be, emotionally, the equivalent of Albert Einstein.  Meaning, where you lack in one area, make up for it in others.  He was not very emotional and sexually present, let's just say I spent many post sexual sessions w/ me pleasing myself.  So I looked for what I craved elsewhere and met a great guy, who ultimately became a great friend.

With the current relationship I'm in, he goes beyond even my own expectations.  We've been together for almost two months now and haven't made love yet.  We're both waiting for the right time and I'm totally ok with that despite the fact I'm horny as all get out, but he's definitely worth the wait.  We talk a lot, about various subjects but there are times when the conversations may get heated and when I feel as if I'm not able to get my point across, I literally shut down.  He notices that and calls me on it.  He tells me that this isn't Nigeria, in the 40s so I need to assert myself and if he ever says anything that hurt my feeling, to call him out on  it.  I was grateful for that, not like he was giving me permission, but he wanted me to have a voice and not shrink into the background.  He's giving me what I need, not just what I want.

I've thought about what would happen if I were to cheat on him and I know that something would be irrevocably broken between us and I don't want that to happen.  He's awesome and I want to see where this story of us will lead to.