Sabotage

I'm very happy to say that this past week was a good week, weight wise.  I've had such a struggle with my weight for a long time.  It was at the point where I thought that I could never get a handle on it and I was not looking forward to seeing each new day.  Now, don't go thinking I was on the verge of suicide or anything, but just having to deal with my struggle with food was not a pleasurable experience.  I was desperate one day and was in search of something, anything, that magic formula that would help me get a handle on my addiction to food and finally put me on the road to weight loss.  I came across this concept called Eat Stop Eat.  Essentially, you eat one day, fast for 24 hrs, then eat and you can fast as much as once a week or every other day.  I tried it, lost a considerable amount of weight but I felt deprived and went nuts with food, gaining all the weight I'd lost plus more.  So one day, I googled Over Eaters anonymous and was trying to find a place to go, to get the help I knew I desperately needed and found this site where this guy talked about his own issues with food.  He had simple words, guidelines for me to follow and I've kept them with me ever since.  I try not to over think the notion of weight loss and just take it one day at a time.  I get tempted to go nuts and eat everything in sight, sure.  I even have visuals in my head of what a pumpkin pie loaded with whipped cream would taste like, but I can't.  I had moments where I would binge and purge and that worked well for a while till i couldn't purge, I'd stall and just keep the weight on.  It's a constant struggle.  I can never put myself in a drug addict's shoes but like them, it's a daily struggle.  I just take it one day at a time.  Also turning to God and asking Him for help has done a lot.  It's hard, but I have to try.  I don't want to give up and go back to being a hostage to food.  So, that is where I am right now.  I'm grateful I made it through one week and am going into this week, praying for strength and help from God to just make it. 

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DblogEdition said…
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DblogEdition said…
"The tragedy in life doesn't lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach".

You need to start doing what's necessary, then do what's possible, and suddenly you'll be doing the impossible!"....sincerely wish you the very best.
YankeeNaija said…
@dbe: awesome quote and thanks for the inspiration.

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