Closed Chapter

The previous blog in which I finally exorcised myself of the past has infact allowed me to move on. I've moved on and that portion is now a closed case, never to be revisisted again. I'm definitely glad for it and I'm happy. I'm free. Funny how release is a gift we sometimes forget to give ourselves. Again I'll say it, I'm free.

On another note, I'm in a relationship. Yes, a relationship. I'm dating a GOOD MAN. Yes class say it with me, a GOOD MAN. I have to pinch myself everyday because the characteristics of this man are all I've wanted. Premature, maybe, but it just FEELS right. It feels as it should feel. It's like the breeze, easy and free. He makes me laugh, and oh, how I laugh and the best part, I make him laugh, although he'll claim it's the side effects of the medication he's being weaned off of (he's not on any medication).

I was so busy looking for what I thought I had to have (tall, lean Nigerian brotha) when all the while my heart was telling me to take a chance on someone who is the opposite and because I did, I found happiness. Go figure and if you haven't guessed yet, it's the akata I was majorly crushing on.

I took the leap and fell into strong arms that hold me the way I've longed to be held, physically and emotionally. He is my better half.

Now mind you, we don't know where this will go and I'm not concerned about that right now. I'm enjoying the now. I'm enjoying the feelings of happiness that I never thought I would have again.

Comments

NaijaScorpio said…
Whoo hoo! Yay for u! Hopefully he turns out to be exactly what u dreamed of and much more. Amen!
April 7, 2008 at 3:51 PM
Simi Speaks said…
awwwwwwwwwwwww.. i love to hear other pple's happyness!! happy for u sweetie...Like you rightly said, enjoy the "now"
April 7, 2008 at 6:31 PM
Uzo said…
I am in a relationship with someone who is so unlike the 'type' i had in mind and i have never been happier...enjoy it...
April 8, 2008 at 11:38 AM
蓝月 said…
i am so happy for you :)

well... i sort of got into such an expected relationship as well... and i've never felt happiness like that before...

hopefully, all goes well for all of us... :)
April 11, 2008 at 6:15 AM
SOLOMONSYDELLE said…
Congrats! i'm so glad you expanded the parameters of what you considered an acceptable mate. God bless!
April 21, 2008 at 12:29 PM
timmy said…
congrats :D

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April 24, 2008 at 7:39 PM
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