My (random) thoughts

Being in my current relationship, I look back on past transgressions in previous relationships.  I cheated on one boyfriend.  Granted, he had the emotional capabilities of a billiard ball, but still that's not an excuse.  I cheated on him because I felt emotionally and sexually wanting.  For me, it's one or the other.  If sexually you don't cut it, you had better be, emotionally, the equivalent of Albert Einstein.  Meaning, where you lack in one area, make up for it in others.  He was not very emotional and sexually present, let's just say I spent many post sexual sessions w/ me pleasing myself.  So I looked for what I craved elsewhere and met a great guy, who ultimately became a great friend. With the current relationship I'm in, he goes beyond even my own expectations.  We've been together for almost two months now and haven't made love yet.  We're both waiting for the right time and I'm totally ok with that despite the fact I'm hor...

When your eyes are finally open to the truths that are said to be self-evident, it's amazing how your life changes.  Not just your life, but your way of thinking. We are ever evolving creatures and aren't meant to remain stagnant.  We are created to change, to metamorphosize into greater aspects of ourselves.  There are those of us that are lucky to go about this early in their lives, but there are those of us that are meant to go about this later in life. I've gotten to where I'm just tired of doing the same old same old.  It's just not working.  I'm physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausted.  I am deeply religious and believe that God wants me to make a change and stop going about my life the hard way and start doing it His way.  His way is easier, His way is way less stressful and His way generates results. I'm 37 years old and I'm finally going to let God have His way with me.  I'm finally going to let God make my life the way it ...