When it boils down to it, all I want is a nice guy. He may be rich, poor, preferably employed, but still a nice guy. Someone kind, takes my feelings into consideration. Working for a dating service, I talk to people everyday and find out what they're looking for and it makes me wonder what I want from someone. I'm now getting to know someone and he seems very nice. From the get go, he was nice and continues to be nice and it doesn't hurt that he's very attractive as well. Mind you, I've had my share of situations and in the end, I look for kindness. Kindness, sense of humor, understanding. you have that, you're on the right track.
Life sucks period. I don't know why I would want to continue it but there's this annoying resiliency within me that won't allow me to give up and I'm grateful, I suppose. There's hope in my heart, to see past the negative and focus on the positive. I'm trying. I focus so much on my failings that I don't see my successes. I've decided to see a therapist. One of my co-workers had success with her therapist so I asked her to give me her therapist's number. I need to unlock whatever it is within me that causing all of this. I want to be whole. I want to be better. Not jagged pieces with no purpose.
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